i've been wondering.. why do people working at fast food restaraunts always provide chilli sauce and NOT tomato sauces? and people who wants tomato sauce, like me, will always have to ask for it? why dont they provide tomato sauces? weird..



sometimes, i think mummy is just UNFAIR!! i mean.. she paid my sis's rebonding fees, and she got her hair rebonded at jean yip. my mum even bought her a new pair of nike sport shoes!! and me? i have to pay for my own rebonding fees? what nonsense..



I NEED A NEW BAG!
AND SHOES!




HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE PEOPLE!




i'm glad i've seen you. i'm glad you felt the same way. i feel down, whenever you're down too. please dont be unhappy anymore k??
i love you my dear. =)


i wanna hold your hand..

2006 is coming, a new year.. that means..
A NEW WISHLIST!

my long long old wishlist..
nahz, forget it. :)


tmr is the eve of the new yr!!
WEETS~

i'm MAD! mummy just wont buy me that OP bag, not even thinking about that billabong bag. awww, i really wanted that billabong bag! i even took a photo of it outside the shop. and that NIKE SPORT SHOES!!

those last few words you said, i thought you were my greatest pal. and now, you act as if the whole world bows down to your feet, you're just a selfish freak who cares only bout yourself.
seriously, how idiotic can you be?


him*

back from that peer leader training thing or workshop.


i'm being posted to grp 5!! din know any single one of them at the start. i'm pathetic. we called ourselves the "SEXY BANANAS". i love our grp cheer!


well, overall it was FUN!

& our grp came in first!
thats something to be proud of. =D

i love SB!

xD

taking my shame to my grave..

went to watch the chronicles of narnia: the lion, the witch and the wardrobe.


seriously.. there was LOADS of people at near bugis there. and that mrs loh.. she chose the seats for us, and that seat was WAY WAY WAY at the front. OH MY GOSH..

there was someone talking at the front, and i'm yawning and yawning non-stop. cnt stop talking.. and they threw chocos. -caught one- :) my right was huishin! my left was anyu!
ahahaha!


the show was simply FAB!! a must see show. yep!


went to walk ard at bugis after the show. took some neo-prints..

THE FOLLOWING PICTURES ARE NOT SUITABLE FOR THE FAINT-HEARTED. =D

LOOK AT AILING'S EYES!! O.O

lil princesses. =)

CAMP CO.!

I LOVE GUIDES! XD

=D


its been a long long long time since i've posted photos in my blog. =.=" went hm wif durga after that.. cc! ahahaha!


i'm feeling moody. a moodswing i guess..


i still do think about you. (:

ytd was a disaster! yet a worthy day for me. :)


went to jp mrt's station's toilet. my sis wanna go there so i accompanied her. after we came out, my sis suddenly shouted that her fone was missing, we ran all the way back, pushing everyone that was getting in our way. but, to no avail, her fone was never to be found again. that fucked up bitch, couldnt even return to us even though it was xmas, i guess she must have been thinking that this was her lucky day, and her fucking present was my sis's birthday present.

seriously, why cant any fucking people just give back to the rightful owner?? why made them suffer?? why make them worry about their handphones?? why cant they spend a fucking thought about what will happen to them?? or cause them so much trouble??

seriously i wish that fucking money-minded bitch to have these fucking nightmares, get knocked down by a ar or something. she will get her own retribution back.. someday..


the reason i went to jp, is because i'm meeting him! i think that it was a bad start when i saw him, my eyes were abit tearry. yep! but manage to say something to him. after drying away my sister's tears, and cutting the phone services, we went to buy the movie tickets. my sis and i took out the money, and wanted to pay. but.. he paid for us le.. =/ he said it was our xmas gifts. ty!! ate at ljs. seriously. i cant stop smiling non-stop. =S went to watch "kk" yep.. well, we missed the last train home.. so we hv to take the bus. he's such a nice guy.. he even walked us home. actually not home, near our home. but.. so nice of him right?? we din talk much though.. at least i get to walk beside him!! haha. suddenly.. i miss him alot. =)


going for the free movie tt loh treated us. WHOOPEE! tt narnia show. going to bugis with the camp committee ppl~ cnt wait! =D


you're the most important thing to me,
i love you my dear.

:)

am i getting excited?
or am i getting afraid?

should i lie to them, that instead of staying here, i'm going there?

i'm confused.

I'M BACK FROM GENTING!

xD

WEEE~~ back from the camp le.


DAY 1

met up wif the rest of e camp committee members. i was the last to reach there again.. they are really early. shiping, ailing, zubi and durga went to lead e pt, while anyu and i went to hide the clues for the treasure hunt. we hide the about 2-3 clues den we found out that we did it wrongly, we have to run back and redo the whole thing over. =.=" hide hide hide. reached the last destination, at the fountain, the big big fountain. we tried to stick it underneath, but it fell in the water instead. so we put it somewhere on top.. we followed 1 of the grp. yeap! that grp was v v enthu. loads and loads of ideas. after tt was field cooking. we sent them out to settle their lunch themselves. den left us (committee members), we chose a spot. seriously, the wind there was HUGE!! we had difficulities. yeap! we managed to cook everything on time. *clap clap* we had some games after tt. the marching part was like the most TIRING part EVER! everybody was like dying. after dinner, we had obstacle race, before that, grp B as suppose to clean up that area. one of them, i wont sae out her name. she mopped the floor for about less than 3 mins, i walked over, she complained to me that she has been doing it for a v v long time, and told me to help her mop and put it back afterwards. wad crap. T.T .. the telematch was soo fun!! everybody went to bathe afterwards.. only us, (committee members) were the only ones dirty. dang~ we slept outside the classroom. seriously.. it was so damn COLD!!


DAY 2

we woke up 15 mins later. we found out they havent even woke up! yeap.. no comments on the 2nd day though..


i love the camp committee!!


i'm going overseas tmr..
3 days 2 nights..
i'm gonna miss you loads.

i love you too. (:

i cant sleep late in the night, those shouting are keeping me awake. i wanted to go in and stop everything. but i just cant, i cant interfere with anything. all i could do is to just hear all the sufferings. i cant stand the pain. i hear the beatings, my heart ached, whenever i hear you hitting her. i couldnt stop but let the tears flow. you showed me the injuries. my heart stopped, i started to cry again. but whenever i looked at you, i just cant help thinking that you were an aggressive person. i started to pity everyone. i was wondering, should i leave home? i will not have known what had happened, and you would not tell me the truth either. should i?



going away for the camp tmr.

just heard the song.. stick with you by the pcd. man!
but that song was feat some guy.. really sucks!

i heard that song.. i was like..
PUIPUIPUI!!
*thumbs down*


2 MORE DAYS TO THE GG CAMP!
4 MORE DAYS TO THE GENTING TRIP!

=))


dont be sad ya?

<3

i'm god damn tired.

e camp committee so called "pon" guides.. we ran off to je to buy some stuffs. came back wif all those stuffs.

it was so damn heavy! must hv made me a few inches shorter nw.. =.="


den.. we came back..


& tt stupid fucking bitch, all because of her, we hv to redo the treasure hunt clues & ans all over again.

her BIG; CHIO; UNFORGETTABLE eyes, peeked into our proposal, causing so much inconvience to us.

we hv to run round & round e school, finding a secretive place for e clues.


we're gonna make sure tt grp B dies of running. (:



tt BITCH!
si bei act chio lor..

damn that bitch.

a BIG hole appearing.
=(

i miss you guys!
<3

she sings like an angel
but you cant hear a word..

seriously.. tt camp thinggy, that we have to plan..

I'M SO DARN STINKING TIRED!


okay.. the camp "people"

CC - durga
ACC - ailing
T - me!
P - shiping
L - zubaidah
AC - anyu


i'm so excited!

they are coming over to my house todae!

0912.. still no sign of them
they must have got lost.

X))

YILIAN'S GREATEST WORK OF ALL. XD

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/425722969



XD

i'm breaking down.

you dont have to repeat yourself over and over again.
i dread hearing your fucking voice.
you make me fucking sick
so what if you do observe us?? stop your fucking whining
you dont have to observe us you know?? its just your mental problem.
we dont do what you want, we have our own personal reasons
its just that your fucking ears dont wanna listen to us
its not our damn problem. its yours
and stop putting the fucking blame on us,
esp me.

STOP YOUR FUCKING NONSENSE.

my stupid com broke down today..
i'm so fucking mad.
yeap~~ fixed le. (:


i'm full of moods.. call it a moodswing if you want. devasted, anger, jealousy.. whatever.


i hate moodswings.. makes me a psycho. T_T


i love MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!
i love GOOD CHARLOTTE!
i love T.A.T.U!
i love THE CLICK FIVE!


hey girl, i'm gonna catch your wave.

its the end.

i dont wanna live no more.

life isn't any use to me no more

life sucks.

i wanna stab myself a thousand million time.

suddenly.. i feel so..

DEPRESSED, SAD, MISERABLE, I'M IN DESPAIR.


i wanna stab myself a million times.

we, (ailing, shiping, zubaidah, durga & me) planned for the 19th and 20th of dec gg camp. the sec 1s & 2s will be there only.. so..

ANY SEC 1S OR SEC 2S GUIDES READING THIS..

PLEASE PLEASE COME TO THIS PATHETIC CAMP!!!


i was e last to reach jurong.. OMG! so paiseh.. =S
talk talk talk.. discuss discuss discuss.. FINALLY!! ITS DONE!!


durga & sp thought of ways to punish dem.. tsk tsk tsk.. their influenced minds.. *shakes head* i gave dem an idea.. to wash the toilets in the middle of the night!!! =D


den.. went to check the prices of those items.. T.T

seriously.. i love hanging out wif my gg frens ((:


i'm REAL REAL confused. heard some things from him, heard another thing from dem.. it was YOU PPL!

THAT SICKENING GRP OF PPL.. YOU PPL STARTED THIS FUCKING NONSENSE. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE YOU HEARD IT. YOU PPL MADE ME LOCK MY BLOG.. YOU SICKENING BUNCH OF IDIOTS, YOU SPREAD EVERY NONSENSE YOU HEARD. THAT FUCKING BASTARD, CANT YOU JUST TELL IT INFRONT OF MY FUCKING FACE?! INSTEAD OF SPREADING THE FUCKING NEWS THAT I LIKE YOU, (which i dont now) TO ALL YOUR FUCKING CLASSMATES. CANT YOU PPL JUST POKE UR FUCKING NOSES SOMEWHERE ELSE?! sheesh..

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice calls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it though every storm
What is life, whats the use if your killed inside
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live

maybe i'm just being scared of everything.
unknowingly, 4 probs rose up to me.
i'm getting mad for 4 days straight.

HIM;
thanks for everything you've done. you listen to me when i'm down or when i'm having probs. you were the one who was willingly to open your listening ear to listen to me when i'm unhappy. not everyone wants to listen to me, they think that i'm just grabbing attention.. no i'm not. true friends are really hard to find nowadays..


i dont wanna close my eyes, i dont wanna fall alsleep cause i miss you babe, & i dont wanna miss a thing~

i've removed my password thinggy.. thats because..
i think that i shuldnt be afraid of dem reading my blog or anything.
seriously.
PLEASE STOP SPOUTING NONSENSE.
tt particular class.. T.T
i dont wanna love nor like anyone anymore.
i'm real pissed off for 3 days straight.. i dont think i cant endure my anger no more.
everyone ard me is making me mad.

i have nothing to say..

I'M PISSED

I'M BACK FROM THE GUIDES CAMP!!

lets say.. guide camp was.. FUN!

DAY 1
went to sch. met up wif ade.. den, we went to wait at e carpark 2gether wif the rest of e sec 2s. we carried their HEAVY bags, checked in for dem, escort dem to the hall. seriously, wad dey were carrying were simply jus HEAVY! really pity dem.. those "small-sized" kids carrying such load. *shakes head*

went to prepare for the games at 4+. the first 2 grps came. jie keep begging me to tell dem the instrutions. =.=" no sickening ppl wanted to hear me. in e end, asked dem if dey noe the game. NONE OF DEM KNEW!! *slaps* esp 1 ger.. si bei sacarstic. buay ta han her.. T.T .. after everything, had some waterbombs left. tt durga threw everything on me. WATCH OUT DURGA!! =X

went hm after dinner. came back afterwardsblah blah blah.. slp in e canteen, on the tables somemore. zzzz.. theres 2 CATS loitering in e sch. i woke up in e middle of e nite, seeing 2 cats staring back at me. had a huge shock! T.T


DAY 2
woke up, my back was hurting like siao. seriously, it was damn cold.

campfire.. okay. it was quite fun i guess..

we sent shiping off to the sch gate. after tt, ade, ailing, grace and me went to stand on e sch gate and called mrs neo to pushed us ard. xD


DAY 3
we're SO PISSED off. we, ailing, ade, shiping, grace and me sang our "favourite" song. started by ailing..

"JENNY KENNY WA WA! MEI KE REN AI DE WA WA! JENNY JENNY WA WA! lalalala~~"

buay ta han her (:


1st look: i laughed at you
2nd look: i rmbed tt incident and continued to laugh
3rd look: some feeling got over me
4th look: i'm in love